Today marks my first day back into the land of non-vegan. I can honestly say that there’s a lot of good things to have come out of the 30 Day challenge, the first being the knowledge that I persevered. Surprising myself and proving the ounce of self-control I feared I was strongly lacking, is worth a lot more than I thought it would be. I love vegetables and fruit, and wish I’d had more time to cook up feasts as I have done for the past week… tofu with couscous, grilled mushrooms and vegetarian sausages being the highlights. I realized how little I actually depend on meat in regular diet, and didn’t miss it all that much either; and with my newfound love of tofu, compounded with lentils etc. I could probably slide by without a lot of meat in the future.
Admittedly, while I was running around between work and uni relentlessly, namely the first three weeks of the challenge, I was eating terribly- not enough healthy food, and really just not enough food! A whole lot of junk food was had! Shameful amounts really. And because junk food doesn’t really fill you up at all, I found I was also constantly hungry and consuming ridiculous portions! Another unfortunate side effect of not eating well was the lack of concentration to any task, despite my personal despot-determination when it came to school work, and the fatigue. OH the fatigue!!! The worst part was that because I wasn’t concentrating properly, I wasn’t getting as much done during the day as I should have been, leading to staying up most of the night and upon completion, sleeping like the dead. Vicious cycle. Not to mention that if I happened upon a nap in the late afternoon/ evening slot, I was physically unable to revive myself from the seemingly-eternal slumber til a minimum of 4hrs later!! During the last week, when I’ve finally had time to cook (and I love the cooking), it’s definitely been a much more pleasant experience.
Today, I awoke, crept into the kitchen cautiously, scared of the great possibility of becoming overwhelmed by food choices. Deciding to keep it simple, I went with my poached egg breakfast, and in all the excitement, forgot to turn off the stove afterward! Not wanting to over-do it too quickly, I left it at that until my late afternoon lunch, which I’d planned weeks in advance- pizza. I am simultaneously proud and ashamed to say that I put it away, all by myself, in less than an hour. Personal best and worst all in one. No dinner, and redemption tomorrow with gym time! But worth it…. sadly, heck yes.
The Vegan Diaries. Over and out.